Have you ever been inlove

Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you, hug you, surprise you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It make you fall for no reason. And make you crazy and slightly happy. But what is painful is loving someone you will never had that chance to have.  Or more someone always there but you can never take as yours. That so called things LOVE. It gets inside of you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart.It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love the way love hate me.